Went to workout in the morning...came hope prep'd for dinner tomorrow, and then set about working on a presentation for a workshop I was doing. Finished that and then went to do some Judo with friends that I hadn't practiced in a very long time. It felt good to get back into it and teach again. Got to see people that haven't worked with each other in years. It was good. I'm going to start going on a regular basis.
After went and did the workshop. Had some technical difficulty with the power point presentation (didn't work) so I had to wing it. In the end, it worked out ok. So it wasn't a total loss.
As for my relationship, well its over. Divorce is really the only option that is left. I'm realizing that I can work on it as much as I want, but I can't do it by myself. I think I've grown so much as a person. I'm dealing with my problems, and to a point I've come to terms with my issues/problems. I know (for the most part) where I failed in this relationship, and I've been working on my shortfalls.
I still hurt, and the pain is still there, but I think I'm ready to move on. I mean, my friends, well they've attempted to communicate with both of us. Listened to both sides and held judgement until both sides were known. Only then do/did they offer advice or an ear to listen to the venting.
So now, I'm working on forgiving. I know its going too be a hard and long road ahead.
As the days turned into weeks, and weeks into months, I've come to terms with my lot.
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