After over a decade of being together, its over. The life as I know it is gone. My world is turned upside-down. Even though I don't want to believe that its true, a line has been drawn in the sand. People will and have taken sides, and I'm afraid its going to get ugly.
For me, I feel like the big loser in all of this. I know that over time I'll heal, grow stronger, and even be a better person, but right now I still feel hurt. I mean I'm going to be losing a set of parents and a close extended family that I feel extemely close to. Definately closer than my own extended family. I'm losing my house, furniture, and other materialistic items, things that we worked hard to acquire. I'll be losing friends, well people I that I thought were my friends.
I don't know who came up with the saying, "the truth will set you free," because its just a big load of excriment. The truth. What a piece of bull___t that women tell you because they expect you to never tell them anything. I've been open, I've been honest, I've gotten rid of my secrets, but when I did all that, well, it just pushed her away more.
Maybe I'm just crazy. Maybe I'm just not looking at this the right way. What I can say though, commmunication is key. Doesn't matter if you say something that you don't think she (or he) doesn't want to hear. It doesn't matter if they're going to get mad, angery, or frustrated. Don't keep it in, don't bottle it up, don't avoid it. If you keep on doing that, well one day its all going to hit the fan, and then the mess will be too big. Talk to you significant other. Communicate your feeling and thoughts. Don't let what happen to me happen to you. Use me as a learning experience, so you don't have go through this pain.
Heed my words, and good luck.
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