Choosing side.

If you would have asked me a year ago about going to a therapist, I would have said I don't have any problems. By the way, anyone ever notice that if you broke up therapist is would say TheRapist? Ok back on topic, so therapists are like professional listeners. Well at least that how I see it. They are an impartial third party that doesn't have a vested interest in your concerns one way or another.

Ever since this whole thing started, my therapist has been there to listen to me. To give me advice on how to deal and cope with my situation. There were times I wish I could be told that everything was going to work out the way I wanted them to, but my therapist kept my eyes on the prize. Ultimately, the prize was for me to be able to move past this whole ordeal. Whether we got back together or went our separate ways, surviving was the goal.

So, what now? Well, how about an update.

As most of you know, I've come to realize that what happen between us isn't just her fault or my fault. We both share in the blame equally. Yes, many of us, myself included, saw what happen bewteen us as mostly if not all her fault, but that's not the case. I've come to realize that we've had problems for a very long while now...this situtation was just the physical manifestation of it. That said, I've moved on and have forgiven her. Some of you might think I'm crazy here, but I'd also like to be able to forgive him one day. I'm not there yet, but some time down the line I hope I can find it within me to be able to do that. Holding this anger can't help me in the long term.

Those that no us both, please, please don't take sides. We both feel bad enough without having more guilt from our friends. Speaking for myself, I'd like to remain friends with you all, but I understand if you feel the need to choose. I won't take it personally. I know that I'm not the most approachable guy in the world, and many of you have even called me an A-hole. But don't worry...I forgive you.

I need to move on...got people to do and things to see.