I've been getting this question quite frequently lately. "So, how are things going?" And lately, my answer has been "Great." However, I've been thinking...am I really doing great? Have the past six months really led me to feeling great? Have I really moved on from all the pain, anger, confussion and a whole host of other emotions?
That's the question that I've been asking myself as of late. Has my trust and faith in someone be ripped away from me? Being lied to my face, then and now, "friends" betraying my trust. Can I and have I really gotten over it? That's the question I keep asking myself.
I've been thinking about this over the past few weeks, and the answer is yes. Yes, I'm over it. This is not to say that I don't think or talk to her anymore, but it's minimal. Mostly, taking care of various things, nothing more. Well at least not for me. I spend time working out, hanging out with friends. Meeting new people and having meaningful intellectual conversations with them. In all honesty, I feel great.
I'm happy. I feel, in a way, free. OK, how about more free? Regardless, I changing who I am. I feel better about who I'm becoming. I'm not suppressing myself anymore. I'm getting back to my "roots." Could this be denial? Maybe, ask me in another few months, but right now...I'm feeling and doing great.
That's the question that I've been asking myself as of late. Has my trust and faith in someone be ripped away from me? Being lied to my face, then and now, "friends" betraying my trust. Can I and have I really gotten over it? That's the question I keep asking myself.
I've been thinking about this over the past few weeks, and the answer is yes. Yes, I'm over it. This is not to say that I don't think or talk to her anymore, but it's minimal. Mostly, taking care of various things, nothing more. Well at least not for me. I spend time working out, hanging out with friends. Meeting new people and having meaningful intellectual conversations with them. In all honesty, I feel great.
I'm happy. I feel, in a way, free. OK, how about more free? Regardless, I changing who I am. I feel better about who I'm becoming. I'm not suppressing myself anymore. I'm getting back to my "roots." Could this be denial? Maybe, ask me in another few months, but right now...I'm feeling and doing great.
It's good to hear that you are doing great. Keep that mind-set and it will help you to get through the whole thing. I am certain that having friends that are there for you helps. But if you were having to suppress yourself to be in a relationship that isn't good at all. I am glad that you don't have to do that anymore.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear that you're doing and feeling great!!!
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